In November I had this grand plan for getting stuff done over the winter. I had a feeling winter was going to put me into a really freaking out of it state where my normal exhaustion levels spiked like I was some bear trying desperately to hibernate. It seems to do that. And overcast skies practically knock me unconscious.
Yet somehow I had convinced myself that I’d be able to get tons of writing done this last winter. And yeah it sounded logical at 1st, especially since in December I had 2 whole days where I didn’t feel exhausted, which is something that I hadn’t experienced since before I was 13 & puberty hit. But I completely failed to realize that I get extra quiet when at that level of exhausted. Feeling quiet does not lend itself well to writing. Maybe next winter I’ll try to bury myself in sketching like a fiend. It could work, despite being burrito wrapped in blankets.
Oh snap, those two days I had where I wasn’t even tired back in December, that’s still screwing with my mind pretty hard. What a tease that was. Seriously.
In feeling so quiet all those months really made me question hard whether I should keep trying to go forward with my writing, art and other creative projects. Keeping to a schedule is awfully difficult to do even before one factors in my exhaustion and other such problems, just out of the sheer unpredictability of creative energy and it’s unruly whim.
Yet now that summer is starting to feel like it’ll be here soon my ability to accomplish project tasks and like my cognitive brain functions are thawing or whatever, here I am back in the thick of it. Maybe next year when it happens again I’ll get to not worry so dang much and just work around it all in a more efficient and useful way. It could happen.
Do you experience a noticeable difference in your productivity and ability to function between winter and summer?
If so, have you come up with any work arounds for that?
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
My Brain is Finally Thawing Out from Winter